Monday,
was a terrible day.
What happened, is a secret.
It made me think much too.
Stayed up late,
was messaging Zhuoning.
She takes irritatingly long to reply messages...
like, when your about to doze off...it rings.
...
Messaged halfway.
Jianlun messaged me," Are u still awake?"
and i called him back.
The conversation wasn't pleasant at all,
it was so surprising,
and it kinda shocked me.
Shocked myself for thinking,
should i, or should i not.
But i made my stand already,
and you know the reasons why.

You want me to be happy,
dont need to go all out,
because Family and Friendship are the most important things.
Not my happiness comes first.
If i suffer, and everyone else is happy, then im okay with it.
If everyone else hates me, because im the only one happy,
then i cant stay happy forever.

Monday also,
2.4 retest for Zhengtat, Deyun, Charmaine and Zhuoning.
Jianlun and i were pacing Zhengtat from the start...
the others at the back were like so...alone.
No one followed them hahas.
So i waited and paced the last person, Zhuoning...
omg, no offence, she runs very slow.
Deyun was walking, i think...
Zhuoning dint overtake him anyway.
Still she dint walk, thats good, haha
In the end, Zhengtat passed by a wholesome 15 secs i think,
and Charmaine passed too.
Now left Zhuoning and Deyun...

Walking into the school after the 2.4,
Zhuoning sprained her ankle...
and there was some kinda fuss about it...haha
like calling for medics and bring her a chair and wanting to call people to carry the chair while she sat down...lol

I dont really care anymore.
Taken from Lynn's blog:
a broken relationship is like a wound.
it hurts really badly.
and sometimes, its so severe that it bleeds.
but after a while, a scab will grow.
but if you pick at that scab
the wound will reopen,
and the blood will come out again
and it'll hurt again.
the blood is like all the misery from the past.
the more you open a wound
the longer it'll take to heal
a relationship is like that.
once its broken,
you've just got to let it heal slowly,
and not insist on picking at it and trying to salvage the relationship.
because in the end,
the misery will come back...