Lookie!! Present for Valerie =)

This picture i made it around 1 week ago. Im not giving it to you. Its amusing yes? But after all that has happened.

I made this 3 days ago. For the same reasons Im not giving this to you also. These past 4days, Many things have happened, these events have made me feel like never before. I have felt more pain and agony. And i know why.

These pictures are here, IF u ever visit my blog, Valerie. Hours were spent editing, trying to find out HOW to further improve the pictures.
Why: Because you meant alot to me.
Goodnight everyone, sweet dreams and Happy Birthday Valerie!

Freak sia...tmr her birthday.
15th birthday.

I must not think about mingrui...
He said i had 2 choices
1) Either i delete the posts about him and he forget that anything happened about the posts...
OR
2)He said the councillor Mrs Greta Tang will take action against me because
-I purposely spread my blog website to attract people
-I posted bad things about mingrui
-I made his picture look like that

Right. Mingrui.
-I purposely spread my blog website to others
I will not spread my blog website to anyone i do not know.
I never spread it to the WHOLE class
I asked only my close friends to look at my blog
You also spread it to the councillor, issnt that contradicting urself?

-I posted bad things about mingrui
First off, My blog is my DIARY.
I do whatever i want with it.
IF u hate the contents, i never ask you to keep reading it.
Ask yourself, WHY would i do such a thing if u did not affect my life?
You angered me, WHERE else to let off my feelings?
More people know, i feel better. Because a burden shared is a burden halfed.

-I made his picture look like that
I did not say that is mingrui
I do not know that guy
I did this so that people wont recognise you in the streets and bash u up.
I already edited my posts before with anything ralating you to your CCA
If you think that is you, i cannot help you then.

Now i answered all your doubts so leave me alone.

K.
I got her bday present.
I dont know why i did it.
Even so, whats done is done.
I reached home at 8pm today.
Went to IMM with Jingyu , Jianlun and Pekko...
Then called val and asked her what she wants...
This is the phone conversation:
Me:Hello? You know who i am?
Valerie: Huh? no...
Me: Really ar u still dont know?
Valerie:Ya..who are you?
Me: k..im song... what u want for ur bday?
Valerie: Aiya...i tell you already i dont need a birthday present.
--
In the end...Jianlun...and pekko...and jingyu all talk until she decided what she wants...
And +Val wanna kill ZhuoNing coz of what she wrote on her blog...
lol.
k
bye.
Enjoy your birthday

I suddenly felt a fleeting stab of anger after reading ZN's blog post...
Im not supposed to feel that...
I Know why...
And i feel disappointed...
Because you dont trust me, do you?
bye

-To people who know what i am getting val...
should i continue with it?
after what ZN said?
I dont think i should...

Haha....this guy

(Unknown person - unrelated to me in any way)
wanted me to delete my posts about him.

Why should i?
It is my diary.
It is my memories.
It enables me to share my feelings.
I did not ask you to read.
It is Personal.

You say you can find a way to "force" me to delete it.
Try it.
Hack my password.
Find out my email first.
U need my email, and my password to login.
=)

K mingrui? Dont make empty promises that you CANNOT do.
And please SHUT UP!
You come to school, this is your time table,
Arrive at school canteen - talk to sooriyah, then to wei chen, then to sooriyah
Go to the hall for assembly - talk during assembly
Walking to class - talk talk talk
Outside class - Talk Talk Talk
Enter the class, im preparing to go for my Mother Tongue - Talk Talk Talk
During lesson - Talk Talk Talk(eg. jianlun...[insert crap here])
Recess - Im talking to atiqah...and u come and sit down opposite me and GUESS WAT?? TALK!!
Geography lesson teacher not around(Im at the teacher's table talking to jianlun) - Interrupt jianlun and talk talk talk (eg. [jianlun talking/mingrui interrupt]Weisong,...(insert crap here) you better delete your blog posts about me or else i will find a way to make you do so.)
Assembly - Lucky i sit allll the way infront =)
Physics remedial - all of us concentrating on some activity in class, YOU FOOKING TALK TALK TALK! MINGRUI CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP?!
-thanks(remember to make me delete my posts k? good luck trying)

What should i doooo???
Its coming...
Her birthday is coming...
Help Help Help Help
i got no taste in choosing presents =(
Suggestions please =D
1) Plush Toy. (too common)
2) See movie(i duno what other movies to watch that are nice...)
3) Go out for dinner =) << Friday got passing out parade

K lar...dun talk so much bye

K.
to mingrui(if u can even find this blog)-

Goodbye. Cya. Muacks. Sayonara. I wont miss you.
Why? because mingrui is -Censored Courtesy of Sir Clement- LOL!
There are people saying that he could be joining
-Choir
-Band
-Interactive Technology Club

So people from these CCAs dont be depressed if he does join...im not complaining about it. It makes my life a hell lot better. But he still sits infront of me in class. Fook.
I should have considered opting into 3/3 class right? Some people from 3/4 seriously sucks. I wont mention names but i think u guys can guess by now, who the hell is making so much trouble. Even giving rubbish comments in class. Even when the teacher asked him to stop like 6 times already.
Still 3/3 has HIM.
I dont know who is worse, HIM or Mingrui.
I guess i chose 3/4 because i did not understand mingrui as much as i do now. When i saw the class list got mingrui there, i was surprised yes and disliked him. Now i HATE him. Also maybe i stayed in 3/4 coz of Jianlun , Jingyu , Pekko and Shiahleei.
I dont really know alot of people from 3/3.
+ i dislike leon. to me, he likes showing off. and i hate people who show off.

Now its 9.45PM. People online in MSN are
-CHRISTINA
-ilX
-ggreen
-Nicol
-EZ
-Divesh
-Jason
-Jingyu
-Plant Freak Vanq
-Atiqah
-Sam Yogen

Hell, i dont know who to speak to. I just want _______ to come online and speak to me.

Yea, its EXCRUCIATINGLY PAINFUL. Like someone you loved took a spear and drove it through your heart. Many of you dont know what happened. Only like... 3 people know the whole damn story. Fook.

9.51PM
I am bored. Wont anyone speak to me? Wont anyone help me cure the pain? Wont anyone help me take my mind off things? Help me solve this issue?

Now, still listening to Leave it all to me by Miranda Cosgrove.
Super nice music =) I know all the lyrics by heart already...haha

Jianlun asked me last year. What is the best way to end your life?
1)bang by lorry
2)Jump into the reservoir
3)Strangle yourself
4)hanging

I duno...maybe i choose option 5)Let my heart bleed to death.

9.57PM
Im getting bored, so are you.
Ah i remembered something, the choir was singing at the study corner on friday.
Nice singing.
The song is My Love Will Get You Home by Christine Glass.
I like the lyrics... =D

9.59PM
Can anyone tell me over MSN or through the chatbox?

Am i unable to make my own decisions?
Do i trust people too much?
Do i deserve all that is happening?
Why am i failing both in my love life and my studies?
Why cant i deal with my own problems?

Ok. Really hope u people can answer me these questions

Pick 8 friends at the top of your head now :
1) Jianlun
2) Minyi
3) Jing yu
4) Valerie
5) Atiqah
6) Stacy
7) Shiah leei
8) Pekhua

One random thing around you now that represents 1 (Jianlun)
The printer beside my table. Looks emo

Choose a song from your playlist to be the theme song for 2 (Minyi)
Leave it all to me - Miranda Cosgrove

If 3 (Jingyu) had been a mythical creature, which one would it be?
Cyclops<<< LOL

Pick a colour that represents 4 (Valerie)
Pink

A typeface that matches 5 (Atiqah)
Cheerful at all times. always full of positive energy

One fashion brand that would not go along well with 6 (Stacy)
Everything would be alright for stacy...i think

For 7 (Shiah leei): Would you get a wallet, necklace or bag?
wallet

Choose a dish that goes well with 8 (Pekhua).
Any dish without vegetables.


[10] firsts.

First Best Friend : My snoopy

First Screen Name : Kaya

First Pet : Dog. ( my snoopy)

First Piercing : None

First crush : Valerie

First CD : Dont know the name of my CDs

First Car : Im 15 years old this year...

First Love : My snoopy

First Place Called Home: Bukit Batok


[9] Lasts.

Last Beverage : Water

Last Car Ride : Yesterday

Last Movie Seen : hancock

Last Phone Call : Jianlun(to ask him geography homework

Last Song You Listened To : Miranda Cosgrove - Leave it all to me

Last Bubble Bath : Last year in Malaysia...

Last Time You Cried : In my last post

Last Thing You Ate : sweets

Last Bad Thing You Did : Emoing in the bus...


[8] Have You Evers.

Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends : Went out for a movie (Atiqah and me)...Dont know if its a date or not.

Have You Ever Been Arrested : No.

Have You Ever Skinny Dipped : Dont know what is this

Have You Ever Been On A Limo : No.

Have You Ever Cheated : Tell lies maybe...But never cheat

Have You Ever Been In Love : yeah

Have You Ever Been In A Car Accident : I went and banged someone's car by mistake...shocked the driver

Have You Ever Broken A Bone : no


[7] Things You Are Wearing
1) school uniform
2) long pants
3) Spectacles
4) Underwear
5) Ink on my fingernails
6) Im wearing a heavy heart
7) -

[6] Things You've Done Today
1) Emo in the bus
2) thought of valerie in the bus
3) thought of valerie in the bus
4) thought of valerie in the bus
5) thought of valerie in the bus
6) thought of valerie in the bus

[5] Favourite Things/People
1) My Phone
2) Miranda Cosgrove's Leave it all to me
3) Valerie
4) Commonwealth Secondary National Cadet Corps
5) Jianlun

[4] People You Tell Almost Anything To
1) Jianlun
2) Minyi
3) Valerie(if she would ask)
4) My Snoopy

[3] Choices
black or white : white
hot or cold : cold
chocolate or vanilla : vanilla

[2] Things You Want To Do Before You Die
1) Date Valerie =)
2) Nothing else

[1] Thing You Regret
1) Being such a disappointment in myself and Valerie

To Valerie-
Remember the first time we held hands?
Remember the first time we looked at each other?
Remember the first time u held my shoulders?
Remember the first time i sat down beside you?
Remember the first time we almost banged into each other?
Remember the first time i told u that i liked you?
Remember the first sentence u said to me?

Because i do.
I remember it very clearly in my mind.
Pekhua tells me you are pissed off by me
Maybe you are, Maybe you are not.
I cannot read minds, please do tell me.

I think im going to emo...
maybe...
definately...
Nothing else seems to matter very much anymore.
I could have took pictures with the No.1 uniform today.
I dont know...whether listening to pekhua was the right thing to do.
I dont know...if my decisions are right or wrong.
I dont know...what is bothering you.
I dont know...what are my weaknesses.
I dont know how...
Can someone guide me the right way?
Help me to illuminate my path?
Please?
Thanks

Ooooh man i think valerie is sooo mad at me by now...
maybe she will kill me one day then i wont need to worry anymore
here are some things on my mind that are bothering me(its the truth)

-Outward Bound Singapore thingy...because i got 8/10 for geography worksheet and accidentally put that tropical monsoon forest has 5 distinct layers...she scolded me...and for talking in class...AND SHES HANDPICKING THE PEOPLE GOING FOR OBS OMGOMGOMGOMG!!

-Jianlun & Minyi...

-Passing out parade + national Day parade training...sucks because of the time wasted on practising...wtffff

-Whether Valerie wanna kill me or not...

-Wondering whether OBS / Pahang Camp / Endau Rompin Camp / December Camp / My own holiday with my family will clash together anot... because the camps are all at end of year...

-I hate mingrui...too bad...for him...maybe some of u have heard...im sure all the NCC people have heard...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA but hes still in class...hes bound to piss me off anyway...or maybe he wont find any more topics to talk about except homework... People affected just dont feel too bad when u find out what happened to mingrui...LOL i am rejoicing...and feeling sorry for those affected...

-Weichen...(dont ask me why i just have this feeling that something is going to happen)

-Pekhua...(dont ask me why either)

-Homework too much, training too much, stay back for NCC/Remedial too much,too little time

-Alot of other random stuff in my mind flying about like the dust in the air...

I hope Valerie DO kill me for this, for what i have done, for everything that is worrying me, for all that i have failed in, for being such a coward. Maybe shes not even reading this...ok bye

HI SIR CLEMENT!! HAHAHAHA XD

Ok tomorrow is the official opening ceremony...FINALLY!!
Im feeling sooo excited, are u?
Were are supposed to
1) Take the uniform and wash it
2)Starch it
3)Iron it
4)SHINE our boots until can see ur reflection
5)draw rifles tomorrow afternoon at 12.30PM
6)Finish up maths homework so Mrs. Margeret Loh wont punish me XD

Ok and wishing all of u OC-ers goodluck and to enjoy this super duper day!!! coz u wont get to have this day anymore unless we shift school...


This is miranda cosgrove =)

Diet Coke and Mentos

THANKS STAFF ASHRAF!!!
THANKS Mrs Yue!!!
Thanks WeiChen!!!
Thanks Pekhua!!!
Thanks YanXuan!!!
Thanks Sooriyah!!!
Thanks Jeremy!!!
Thanks Liangwei!!!

for being there with me today. My mind was at times completely at a blank. Trying to remember...

Ok anyway. The Opening Ceremony is coming. Only. 7. More. Days. But. 5. More. Trainings.

ARRRGH!!!!! Stress right? haha
Lets count the problems i have in life.
1)Mingrui
2)Councillor coz of Mingrui
3)Too much homework(esp. maths but its MrsLoh so expect more)
4)Too little time because of OC
5)I think val hates me...Note: think only
6)Jianlun...Minyi...?!?!
7)Im in love with Miranda Cosgrove...the one on my phone...JOKING!

K now lets count the lovely things in life.
1)My family
2)School
3)Opening ceremony (Means can wear No.1 uniform...More pictures for my phone)
4)Mingrui is improving
5)I got Miranda Cosgrove's music in my phone. Leave it all to me!!!

Nothing else. If ur wondering who the heck is Miranda cosgrove, Shes a 15 year old american actress and singer. Photos please do look at my phone.

iCarly- Leave It All to Me